Memories like picture books in my mind
Pockets of time I can’t look back on
Can’t unfold em can’t unpack em
Looking for something better to believe in
God is good, but i’m still grieving
We got time, we got seasons
Render and surrender any bits
I burned down your crucifix
Im so shit at bargaining I make myself remember
Open heart open fist, made weapons out of it
Im so shit at bargaining I make myself remember
Did you ever love me at all?
I don’t know your face anymore
I don’t think I ever did in the first place
But you held yourself to me like a gun
Break like glass when I fall
Livin’ for your love like a dog
Never had the grace to give me any mercy
But you held yourself to me
Did I lose my glow?
I can’t trace myself
Back to who I was when we were strangers
Nothing feels like home
But nothin’s ever felt like home to me
Who am I supposed to be ?
Who am I supposed to be ?
Render and surrender any bits
I burned down your crucifix
Im so shit at bargaining I make myself remember
Open heart open fist, made weapons out of it
Im so shit at bargaining I make myself remember
Did you ever love me at all?
I don’t know your face anymore
I don’t think I ever did in the first place
But you held yourself to me like a gun
Break like glass when I fall
Livin’ for your love like a dog
Never had the grace to give me any mercy
But you held yourself to me
You held yourself to me
Did you ever love me at all?
I don’t know your face anymore
I don’t think I ever did in the first place
But you held yourself to me
credits
from Protect My Peace,
released November 10, 2022
Jacquie Lee
Jacob Galdes
The brilliant Ego Ella May returns with the latest installment in the “Fieldnotes” series, full of searching, gorgeous songs. Bandcamp New & Notable Nov 19, 2023
